What should I do , when I don't know what to do and how to start all my uncompleted works?

The answer is.....


Have a SNAP and a NAP ;D

TEEHEE xDDDD

女人经不起寂寞
这句话其实我非常认同。

其实我想说。
身边没有一个了解你和真正懂你，去爱和保护你的人，
真的很寂寞。

当这颗心，付出了许多，但是的不到它一些小小的渴望时，真很受伤。
譬如说：一群人去吃饭，却没叫上她。
或则，拍大合照，那个拿相机的可怜儿。

都是活生生的例子。

有时候活着，其实真的觉很寂寞，毕竟这世上，绝对不会有人比你自己更了解自己，
只不过，我们都在找一个人来依靠，和寄托罢了。

不管是爱人还是朋友都好。

我好像很久没喝中学同学联络了。
至于小学？
连聚会都没出席过。

或许，你以为，我必定是在大学生活里，找到一群很要好的朋友。
所以忘了其他人？

别傻了。

话说，自从开始工作的那段日子，开始慢慢要承担自己对于家庭的责任时，
妈妈，是我最好的依靠。

我发现，她老了。
没力气管教弟弟了。
但是，我虽身为长姐，如同母亲，可我弟从小到大，从不听我的，仿佛好像我欠他的。
管不了。

上了大学，是有认识很多很有趣的人。
不过我要的是一群我可以信任的人。

=)

我不是那么容易就信赖一个人。
天蝎座震后群？
我或许就是这样的人。

我一旦相信，爱，一人。
对于她，我定是10全付出。

我曾经告诉过一位我老好友:"我觉得，我很像流浪者。"

我有很多朋友，而这些朋友，却不是每个了解我。
我可以很容易，结交朋友，但是却不能永远和他们在一起。

我是一个很心细的人，我很容易，因为他人所作的一些毫不起眼的事情，而感到反感。
同时，很容易为一些小事而感动。

记得那时，一位远方的朋友。
突如其来的text了“I miss you”, 我就感到很窝心。
那种感觉就是，你在一座荒岛上，突然知道，在荒岛外，有人挂念你。
感觉，原来这个世界，除了我妈，我还值得被爱被思恋。

说会流浪者，是因为我有着不同圈子的朋友。
在每一个圈子里面，我无法和所有人都很要好，只能保持良好的关系，或者和里面其中几个莫名其妙的很要好，
然后又在另一个圈子，又有着一个还是两个得老死。xD

所以啊，
我总觉得，我总是在这几个不同的圈子徘徊，找不到属于自己的那堆人，找不到落地的感觉。

现在在大学，和几位不过的女生相处，感情也挺好。
但是以后，谁知道？
知道了又能怎样？

很多人说，感情不是用时间来衡量的。
这一点，我绝对认同。
可是同样的，路遥知马力，日久见人心。

我更相信，感情是要透过时间考验的。

心

不管曾经有多爱，过了就过了。

如果不能为自己停留的爱那就算了。

女孩们，务必善待自己。

即时，无法真正法制内心的笑。

要微笑的告诉人家，我过的很好，勿担忧。

但是唯独骗不了，却是自己的内心。

所以啊，即使自己脸上的笑容在美丽。

可是，这心呢？

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I may look ugly just like the story that we read in childhood  "ugly little duck"

but please don't forget ungly lil duck will transform to a beautiful swam somedays.

peoples that teas criticize me , watch out , some day I will shock you kao kao xDDD

alas, believe me i think im gone insane
actually im doing assignment but while doing it makes me gone to a side.
so need to chill myself down.

is late , and i think everyone is busy
so i decided to crap here.

now get back to works
ciaos!

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English is so difficult .
=

有些痛楚，有些瓶颈，有些眼泪。
这一些，只能靠自己一个人，挨过。

真的，有些痛。

Hello peoples ,
现在的心情真的很好，
或许我真的很喜欢这种精神。

希望这种精神能扩大，给所有的人，知道这一天的重要。
其实我们每一天都在接触媒体，每天从它身上知道不少的资讯。
当然，我们认为是事实才会被报道出来。

但是很可惜，如今它被禁锢。
那种感觉就像一个人给一群人捂着嘴巴，有很多话想说，但是由于一些外来的压力，只能选择，隐瞒事实。

if some one can own media , that person must be the strongest in this whole world!

so we must speak out and being supportive to this day.

虽然，我不是谁。
不是什么大人物，但是我确实是一名就读媒体的学生。
我真的希望以后，我们可以想说我们想说的，想写我们想写的。

而世界新闻自由日跟黄绿衣活动比起来，可能显得渺小
或许也没有人会留意，但是这绝对不是一件能属虎的事情。

对于媒体的passion, 从来没有少过。
如今，因为前几日，看见记者们的惨事和腐败的制度，心中真的感觉悲哀。

好了，不说了。
希望明年，这个活动，会有更多人的支持。

最后以一张combination 的图来结束这篇文章。

我们都是学记，都是爱护媒体自由的一群青年。

;D

this is how I feel for today ><

Today started my 1st class in college.

Seems like I haven't get use in this next chapter of life.

feel so unconcern .

morning we have writting and reading class

suddenly our lecturer asked us to write an argumentative essay over 250words in 40mins

and we all are newbees we all just look at him and give him a super shocking face.

0.O

what to do ?

we just write it out as we can write right ?

4omins past, we need to hand up our essay .

but before handing up lecturer comment about our mistake that he saw in our paper

and I do realise that almost all the mistake that he mention , I almost did it all.

so MALU nia ><

I think I better work hard in english , if not I will be kick out from this society somedays

btw our class ended an hour earlier

the our next class postpone an hour from the actual time

which mean we have 4hour time blank ><

so we decided go to OU for lunch and have a walk

3pm our class should be start but too bad miss is late for half an hour.

when she walk in she told us we have PRESENTATION and COURSEWORK .

once again we being shocked again .

Seems like newbees will be shocked for many times for the first day in school ><

is true, because just now around 8.30pm , i was checking my mail

suddenly i saw mail from miss , that she ask her to do research and HOMEWORKS LOL

another shocking fact again.

CIAOS!

super tiring now.

You know what ?

I starting miss my long hair ><

especially when I take this snap , I do think if I still have my long hair will be prettier xDDD

Btw, I macam grow fat already ><

Ciaos!

going midvalley for dinner <3

Hello peoples,





I hope here do still have some xD
Been times that I didn't update here,
Im sorry is just that Im too busy to have a couple of time to blog.

Back to the story,
Now I am a college student in KDU hahahahahaha
which is located at damansara jaya
and too bad is I haven get my CDL and CAR
so my mother will be my full time driver and peg will be my part time drive

LOL

see how bad am I ? xD

Orientation day actually is boring.
Although is a chance to meet new peoples
Basicly orientation day is something like one day camp,
so people who use to go camp like me , everything is just so common to us.


The schools is great.
Food is average.
Of course do have hot ANGMONG GUY , but I don't know them x)

How about friends?
Oh yes , do meet some.
But not really can talk with them .
Is not language problem, I do speak english.
The problem is personality problems


Some of those are too bitchi for me
some of those too k-pop
is hard to find some one who knows you and cares you ><
thats why I do agree in college is kind of hard to makes true friends.


You know what ?
I started to miss my high school friend and Xj mates
at least you guys understand me & know me

Awww.....
I ain't sad ,is just compair now and past.
it just makes me feel you guys are great.

Need to go home now, cause actually I in my college now xD
CIAOS!

One of the fact about life is

life is never going to fair , so life as just we know it.

Actually , I feel awful.

something sad and geram while these few days I'm working.

just that thing getting worse and I just can't do anything.

for me I being thankful what I already own

but some time I feel that I also the unlucky one.

I always wonder why my luck is being so bad from the day I born till now.

never mind , if the god don't want to bless me.

I still gonna to work my ass off to do what I want

so of course since I has no luck the journey to success will be even tough.

I will be strong and I know it I can survive.

btw, HCNY.

;D

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#481

A very happy new year for peeps , friends, love and mates.

Is a grand new year, in this day perhaps everyone have their on plan.

Yesterday went out with tooffy to buy my dad birthday present

and accompany her for her job interview.

since she not going back home to sarawak I hope that she can get her job xD

if not she will be awful xD

around 3pm we left

because in the evening I still have another activity anther event to go

yes is kepong XJ gathering plus countdown

but one thing sad that is most of out members didn't not really present themself.

ahem , I'm blaming you guys, don't worry .

well, jowyn send me to wenyi house

and then when I reach they just so semangat and shout :"da ka jie you finally came"

I'm LOL ,hahahahahahahaha1.

and I feel happy when I see my junior senior and my yearmates too.

I was shick to see vincent by the way his hair looks so cacat xD

but since he is fried french fries for us so I can forgive about his hair

everybody is busy preparing for out coming dinner

which is BBQ and STEAMBOAT.

and I had nothing to do cause all the "meals" and some of them has rampas all those work to do.

I feel so bored , suddenly I saw some one wearing a hat.

I just take off his hat and look at him

OMG is Jacky hahahaha, I just shouted out "you looks so cute in your botak hair cut "

after that went out with senyi , canly and felicia to buy ice

while the way home this two little girl scared by a wild dog

me and sengyi just non-stop laughing on them =P

errrr....

then blah blah blah .

seriosly im kinda lazy to type because 1hour later im going ady so

just let this tempo move faster to night.

night after eating we went to the park for countdown and wishing each other

then my poiyi came and phone me

telling me that she don't want to go NS

me and weijin is like speechless because she said wanted to hear our voice

but no matter what we say we just can't cheer her up

cause she is too upset about going there

until today she still sms while she is on the way going to .

Aw yong poi yi just let it be lah

after 75days we will miss PLKN

enjoy your NS lah

then we played RUNNING MAN

hahahahaha , what I only can say , Im too evil to make sengyi and peishan lose

which makes out dinner tan win the game ><

yes , I have a joyfulness countdown with them

I hope we still have chance for yamcha or so

then today arounf 9am I leave wenyi house

when I reach home bath then sleep for 2hours cause today almost 5AM we guys only sleep

imagine what siao stuff we did yesterday and this morning xD

around 11am I went to my aunt house for some helping

cause today her place having house warming and birthday celebration for her kai lui

until now only come back

at first I don't feel like blogging but no choice

my lil bro now only want to clean mop the floor so I can't walk in to my room and sleep

how sad ><

well , later I going out with family for movie

MISSION IMPOSSIBLE

i feel so sleepy tapi my bro haven gaodim .

T^T

so i just continue crapping xD

well for this new year a grand new year

and Im 18. I have my right to things I like

choose what I want

so I wish in 2012 I can walk to road who lead me to my dreams

so that in future I will get what life that I want

CIAO!

happy new year