One of the fact about life is

life is never going to fair , so life as just we know it.

Actually , I feel awful.

something sad and geram while these few days I'm working.

just that thing getting worse and I just can't do anything.

for me I being thankful what I already own

but some time I feel that I also the unlucky one.

I always wonder why my luck is being so bad from the day I born till now.

never mind , if the god don't want to bless me.

I still gonna to work my ass off to do what I want

so of course since I has no luck the journey to success will be even tough.

I will be strong and I know it I can survive.

btw, HCNY.

;D

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#481

A very happy new year for peeps , friends, love and mates.

Is a grand new year, in this day perhaps everyone have their on plan.

Yesterday went out with tooffy to buy my dad birthday present

and accompany her for her job interview.

since she not going back home to sarawak I hope that she can get her job xD

if not she will be awful xD

around 3pm we left

because in the evening I still have another activity anther event to go

yes is kepong XJ gathering plus countdown

but one thing sad that is most of out members didn't not really present themself.

ahem , I'm blaming you guys, don't worry .

well, jowyn send me to wenyi house

and then when I reach they just so semangat and shout :"da ka jie you finally came"

I'm LOL ,hahahahahahahaha1.

and I feel happy when I see my junior senior and my yearmates too.

I was shick to see vincent by the way his hair looks so cacat xD

but since he is fried french fries for us so I can forgive about his hair

everybody is busy preparing for out coming dinner

which is BBQ and STEAMBOAT.

and I had nothing to do cause all the "meals" and some of them has rampas all those work to do.

I feel so bored , suddenly I saw some one wearing a hat.

I just take off his hat and look at him

OMG is Jacky hahahaha, I just shouted out "you looks so cute in your botak hair cut "

after that went out with senyi , canly and felicia to buy ice

while the way home this two little girl scared by a wild dog

me and sengyi just non-stop laughing on them =P

errrr....

then blah blah blah .

seriosly im kinda lazy to type because 1hour later im going ady so

just let this tempo move faster to night.

night after eating we went to the park for countdown and wishing each other

then my poiyi came and phone me

telling me that she don't want to go NS

me and weijin is like speechless because she said wanted to hear our voice

but no matter what we say we just can't cheer her up

cause she is too upset about going there

until today she still sms while she is on the way going to .

Aw yong poi yi just let it be lah

after 75days we will miss PLKN

enjoy your NS lah

then we played RUNNING MAN

hahahahaha , what I only can say , Im too evil to make sengyi and peishan lose

which makes out dinner tan win the game ><

yes , I have a joyfulness countdown with them

I hope we still have chance for yamcha or so

then today arounf 9am I leave wenyi house

when I reach home bath then sleep for 2hours cause today almost 5AM we guys only sleep

imagine what siao stuff we did yesterday and this morning xD

around 11am I went to my aunt house for some helping

cause today her place having house warming and birthday celebration for her kai lui

until now only come back

at first I don't feel like blogging but no choice

my lil bro now only want to clean mop the floor so I can't walk in to my room and sleep

how sad ><

well , later I going out with family for movie

MISSION IMPOSSIBLE

i feel so sleepy tapi my bro haven gaodim .

T^T

so i just continue crapping xD

well for this new year a grand new year

and Im 18. I have my right to things I like

choose what I want

so I wish in 2012 I can walk to road who lead me to my dreams

so that in future I will get what life that I want

CIAO!

happy new year

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#480

I was wondering and asking myself

"SHOULD I BLOG ?"

yes , its sounds so lame but still is a question in my heart

2years ago , I created this blog.

and now my blog is like or consider almost half dead

in 2011 as my close mates know , I always being busy .

Is already timeless for rest and Im using a phone without wifi function

so please expect too much xD

However , in 2011 I really did alot of awsomeness stuff but I didn't using my words and my talk to save it as a memories.

but all this will be in my heart and I still do have some photo =)

I still remember I was so shock that I went to saga!

Yes, Im happy that can be the save class with her , my best friend .

she will know when she read this.

if she don't just let it be .

and because of getting to a new class , new environment.

Yes, I feel stressful . In my class I met some SIAO person

who can PLAY HARD and STUDY HARD!

I feel bad and a little bit of shamefulness ,

when I was been looking like them but ain't like them .

is just so awful !

In this new environment thank god is I met a new friend .

Can't consider that she is new friend to me

cause in 2007 I already know who is this girl but we just schoolmates and we don't talk.

and she told me she feel same too ! xD

but this can't stop our relationship goes on.

we bumped each other in this year

she sit right beside me

at first we feel weird about each other and we went out so random for movie.

although we didn't say it out , but we can feel it .

You don't know what happen coming next , so just continue and stay tune.

after our once heart to heart talk , the distance of our heart is getting closer and closer.

and I truely believe that , we have some language which only we both can understand.

We eat, We chat , We play , We sing , We celebrate days , We give each other nickname, We smile , We dreams , We Kap-zai and so

yes we did , we did alot of crazy things and make each others life more wonderful , more joyful and memorable.

Dear toofy , you know how much I love you .

You mean alot to me .

Please keep touch with me , because I will touch your heart back.

just like I said :"Friends is some one will touches your heart "

after today , I will be officialy 18.

actually I don't why people are so excited for it.

To me , is just new begin .

what we should do and what shall we do .

is the same , we need to live , our life still go on.

and we just getting older xD

Well , I don't know what to write actually

I think I should be thankful that I have some girlsmate being with me

for yeng :

please don't be so busy , I know I have no right to said this.

because I also kind of those busy person

but I really want to spends some time with you

You know what you owe me and you know in my heart you have your place.

for sushi,

in my heart , you were deeply in there.

you know who much I appreciate you.

being friends for 11years and will still being close although not like form 2

but I still believe however how far we go , we still being together.

next time don't ffk me again . twice ady xD

for belle,

ok lah , I love you .

I know you will be touch that you see this.

cause I never said it to you .

so can this consider as a new year gift ?

you know me well and same to me .

you know my hear no need said those lapsap stuff.

what I wanted to said is

please think well when you want to end something

for you and the anther is alot and meaningful.

please love your love more .

you know what I mean

for J.Hao ,

I don't know what kind of thankful or touched words to you

because you macam my bro always take care of we both .

although , she left but you still do your part and love her so .

I really hope you being well no matter is being with or not

don't forget you still have him and me , we will cover you .

and I want my HD on jan 9 so watch out!

For Mun,

I know what you do for me and how you feel about me

is just that you know I banyak pasal

being your soulmate is content for me and I feel good

you always is the one that I can rely,

the one that makes me feel beloved,

the one can makes me happy,

the one will raise me when I feel sad,

the one will never makes me feel lonely.

I know what had you done for me , I feel love.

Thankyou , I kept you in heart.

for Stella JY,

Mau pergi shopping , mau pergi yamcha , mau buat alot of stuff.

don't worry I will keep my promise I swear.

I hope you didn't not regret in XJ .

people you met here.

people that love you.

I hope you enjoy.

and some one said some how you and me got a bit alike

at least we siao kia like to SHOP xD

for jowyn,

I do see that you enjoyed your new life HUH?

hahahahaha, thank that you didn't regret.

just keep go on , you will earn more in this journey .

you what I mean right ?

oh yea , is spm year , don't let yourself be so stress.

everything will be fine =)

for weijin,

can please be more gentle and have a life more awsome xD

you get what I mean right ?

please be like a lady if not we will be worry that

you still can't get a boyfriend in future

those lapsap words tak payah cakap

cause you also tak cakap.

at least we know what each other mean for it.

yes , thankyou for forgiving me being wilfulness and treated you badly .

oh yea and scold you without reason xD

but this what BF means .

so next year continue let me scold you lah hahahahahaha

for peiyi,

I will pray for u to be well in campsite

for not getting insane about the k-pop thingy.

giving me you camp side address so I can write you letter.

to shown that how much you mean to me

and how much I miss you .

thankyou for being my sis that always let me do everything I want.

help me do things that I hated

and tahan all those bad thing before its come to me.

remember I will be there for you.

ILY,PY=)

for mcat,

I always forget to give you a gift that I bought for u xD

don't keep everything in heart.

split it out , so we can help or listen you.

so that we can understand you .

you my best OP kaki forever.

without you in the coming next 3 months I will be very boring

and we will go our date when you back =)

ILYtoo xD

At last for sally ,

some times I know you feel back that you can't come back or not understand some stuff

but I will stand up for you .

although we didn't go out much this year actually twice only

nevermind I believe in 2012 will can go out like SIAO!

as I always said whenever you have your problem what lapsap

I also can be you listener.

I want my HAMDAN back.

JAN mau go pak toh with you just like we went midvalley last time =)

I love you so

so for others , doesn't not mean your not piece of cake of what

I just too lazy and tried to write xD

for my new year wish is

I wish I can complete the car thingy in feb .

SPM result not need all A cukup makan then is okay for me already

so I can continue my dreams to get what life I want in future

At last Happy new year eve

Im still seventeen xD

到最后，你属于了他，我属于他，我们最后都不属于对方。

只不过你放开了我，选择了幸福。

而我不接受你，却让寂寞把我带走。

我知道，你知道，即使你还是不把我放开，我还是不要你的。

或许是傻，但是我杀的甘愿。

有些幸福，不是我能触碰。

有些感情，就让它过去。

有些心声，让它在我心中。

有些感觉，就让我自己一个承受。

有些要求，你给不到我。

有些事情，你做不来。

有些诺言，你承诺不了。

有些关系，你我都不可能拥有。

祝你幸福，给我最曾经喜欢过你的。

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#478

Trial 过了

假期过了
生日过了

马来西亚教育文凭考试来了

倒数最后78小时

竟然时间过得那么快，这一点其实我知道，

只是即使知道又如何，你还是会觉得时间不知不觉地过去了。

明天要去上学，因为要珍惜最后两天的的高中生涯。

已经决定不会读中六的我，再过54小时之后，就正式画下句点。
现在想起，其实好像才刚进中学不久。
傻乎乎的过了中一

乐乎乎的过了中二

承受药理的过了中三

和学记天真浪漫的过了中四

现在是珍惜着每一秒，每一人的过着中五。

我相信，以后即使上了学院，还是会想起中学的时光。

那些我们，你们，他们，都会想起。

只是或许感情会谈，但是那又怎样呢？
如果只是一方付出，那么哪里可能会长久？
所以我很珍惜那位已经毕业的好朋友以及我的学记情。
不要问为什么，因为他们即使走了多远，跑了多久，

他们总是会拉着你一起走，而你也会跟着跑，你跟不上的时候，

他们会等你，他们会来寻找那个已经迷路的自己。

或是一通电话，一则简讯的问候=）

我承认，我是一个不会和人KEEP IN TOUCH 的人

所以要多联络我 xD

很快就要考了,真的吃粥吃饭，就看他了。
我自己不是那种A+的学生

哪怕我有一两三个A/A- 我都要偷笑了

所以我只往，国语不要不及格拿到credit，其他也使credit

我知道虽然我成绩不是很好，但是无论如何，我都要完成degree

不然以后连粥都没分吃。
我要为梦想奋斗！

现在不比人努力，那么以后就不会比人成功
这是我为spm努力下去的动力。

所以大家加油吧

ps最近很喜欢动力火车的歌，可以激起斗志 ！

我很喜欢这件衣服=）

477

#477

I know it sound so kid and LAME

but I still like to say

she is my best friend forever and ever ;D

Happy Birthday , you know I love you <3

476

#476

I don't now why , I just feel awful .

maybe there is things that I won't want to face.

I'm just no in mood for study

and yet I know spm is coming , please don't remind me

cause is always in my brain .

I can't stand that my family non-stop telling me

"you must study hard , don't just say you do , you must show us"

Hell , how could I should you guys when I'm studying midnight

and all you guys are happily sleeping in you bed

you guys only keep scolding me for staying late

but you just don't know what am I doing

please! I grown big now

I know what I suppose to so now

believe me I won't did what I did during my spm

whenver you believe me or not

I still will do my part.

although maybe the result came out you may doesn't like it

but to me maybe is ok to me

you guys just don't know.

I just feel awful, I didn't mean to blame them

maybe i'm overstress ,although I think I didn't study much compare with those A+ student

but I still done it my way.

well, pmr is going to end by tmr

so which mean next exam is SPM .

if anyone one want to say good luck to me, i think you better don't

because I always not the lucky one

if you really do want to bless me

just pray for me

and thx =)

good night everyone